errrr little awkies

so i definitely fully melted down today at school. this is the hardest thing ever; i really underestimated how much losing Michelle would hurt me. but first time i've cried - maybe I can start losing the weight on my chest now. its the oddest feeling.
the weeked is looking exceedingly average.

• a denim jacket/shirt like this

• leather jacket. i am aware that reasonable imitations are available for $80 dollars  but i think paying full price will be worth it when it doesn't fall apart in a year.

• doc marten boots

• any cute/grungy boots.

                                                                  unf. i want to own you

I want to be you.

je t'adore

so fourth day of casual and i'm already bored. on a positive note my pants are amazing today. i might take a photo one day. unfortunatelement (franglais :) ) i have lost my ATM card so i'm to all intents and purposes totally broke at the moment.

grrrr....

it is either:

• at nadia's
• at my local coles
• at nicoles
• on public transport somewhere
• in my room.

please be in my room!
splendour in the grass looks INCREDIBLE this year and i cannot go. Like totally legendary. The Strokes, The Pixies, Florence and the Machine, Hot Chip...to name but a few.
NOT FAIR. NOT HAPPY JAN.

HAHAHAHAHAHA. "emo is over, you can all go home now"

also MGMT have released a new album. I haven't actually listened to it but hopefully it should be good. ish. maybe. I don't think I particularly care either way, but if its INCREDIBUBBLE you shall all hear my rantings

You. Me. My pants. Now

This is all

this poem

i really like it. i think its pretty; and it captures the frustrated spirit of love well.

Anthem
in the movies people freeze time when they kiss, they illuminate when their skin brushes lightly against one another, they lay beneath cool cotton sheets embalmed and cured with sweat and passion.



in the movies it only take ten minutes to fall in love.






in life people make a resemblance of a relationship out of strong infatuations, they endure hurt & pain to avoid being alone and fluctuant, they pledge their cages to their partners but the birds inside belong to someone else constantly.


in life it takes decades to retrieve thoroughly the concept of love.
 
 
was my wanky analysis pretentious enough?? ahaha but in all seriousness (definitely had the urge to say seriousity...thus i read too much 'angus thongs...') I really do like the poem. Its pretty.
Written by EricJasonGastelum, I found it thanks to his girlfriend who posts on a website I'm a member of.  So yay!
At the moment I'm really enjoying the pre-release free download I got of Young Heretic's new album. And by 'new' I mean 'debut'. EXCITEMENT TO THE MAX OMG
get on that; or if you want/have my details so I can email it to you I'm always happy to help. The only condition is whoever recieves it by download has to plug the album somewhere - you may have noticed it in my twitter. so cool.
 
Listening to: I Know I'm A Wolf - Young Heretics (aka best song ever in the world)
 
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ignore this post unless you want your brain to fall out

so i met the love of my life today.
he's 10.
yeah.....

so awesome back to school yes and we're off to a flying start with a SAC already! i should be studying. urghhhh

not trying to make myself seem really pathetic; but i don't understand how my mind works at all. i can fall in and out of lust at the drop of a hat and its getting beyond ridiculous. i want something defined and proper....something that makes me feel like i might die.

yeah i'm cool

i'm out. homework beckons


EDIT/ just so we're clear; my falling-in-lust thing is totally unrelated to the 10 year old. he's cute, but i generally go for post-pubescent.

:(

sorry for the lack of updates this past week but

1. i was away and omgabfiugbaogabneibginh ugn  i love train travel. we flew to darwin on monday morning, saw crocodiles, were  amazed by the force of the storms, ate lovely food and then got on the ghan which runs from darwin down through central australia to adelaide. it was super awesome fun oh my goodness; and hilarity ensued when we watched the very effeminate very camp 'hospitality manager' subtlely chasing the young hot blonde french chef around the train. trains are narrow, y'know? which means one way traffic. which MEANS some awkward collisions occurred where hot french man mumbled 'excuse-moi' and kept walking while hospitality manager called after him.
   there were alot of old people - apparently its a retirement type trip. who would have known? not my parents obviously!
2. and this is the most important reason and the part where i stop being witty and amusing (yeah right...)
   the worst thing i could possibly have thought of has happened. if you recall this post from a few weeks ago; the girl I was talking about is a good friend of mine who was the creator and moderator of the blog linked there.She has handed it over to another girl called Charlotte who is going to do an amazing job. Unfortunately Chelle, the creator had to give it up because *braces self* she was suffering from Acute Lymphoblastic Leukaemia and been fighting it for some years. On the morning of March 24; her 24th birthday Michelle lost her fight due to an infection contracted the previous day. She passed away peacefully in her sleep with her parents with her. I am so upset; distressed is an understatement. This girl is one of the strongest and most inspirational people I have ever had the privelige of knowing; I just wish I had got to know her sooner. I can't stop thinking about all the things she could have done - the guy she was in love with who will never know she loved him. So yeah, I needed some time to calm down and I have done that. I'll be posting again now but probably less frequently for a while. And I won't stop promoting this  until my fingers drop off.

RainyMood.com

RainyMood.com


oh my. brb listening to the rain

chorals actually makes my life complete.

today we had a full cast run through with orchestra with all the songs and it was quite simply mindblowing.
I attempted to document the day a little; through my mad wicked photography skillz.

First we trekked through the bush of Macleod, because the house that hikes together wins Chorals...together.

I feel sorry for the girl carrying the cello....

This is but a small sample of the food we ate. It was intense; I have never seen so much bread and chocolate present except at a bread and chocolate factory. Needless to say, everybody was well fed.

Some members of my cast ♥. I'm not going to deny it; cast are my fave. They're all so hardworking and eager and so easy to work with!

I'm super excited for chorals. For anyone who doesn't understand my crazy ramblings thus far; chorals is a house event conducted by my school each year where each house writes, directs and conducts a 20 minute musical and this year Dryads are going to win. Today was the first time we got most of the cast together with orchestra and the songs sound amaaaaaaaaaazing.

Listening to: You've Got the Love - Florence and the Machin

booshy booshy always such a fun time

The Mighty Boosh....ahh what sweet wonder they bring to my life. Noel Fielding and I will be united in matrimony one day in the not so distant future. Its not just his crazy fashion or ridiculous sense of humour that I love; his wit and writing ability is truly admirable. One of my particular favourite parts of the Boosh (one of everybody's favourite parts I think) is the Crimp. Oh the crimp.
So this is a little dedication to the humble Crimp which has brought so much chanty, sing-songy, nonsensical goodness to my heart, and the hearts of so many others. I can legitimately tell you that this little ditty featured here; the Four Way Crimp as seen in season 3 is my ringtone at the moment; I can't wait for somebody to call me.

I watch too much television D:

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Listening to: More Than Life - Whitley

you play with the wolves but you sleep with the bones of the rabbit

oh myyyyyyy god what a weekend.
Saturday saw one of the biggest storms to hit Melbourne since forever, it was sunny in the morning but by 2pm the sky was grim and it wasn't long before huge winds and heavy rain, thunder and lightning (and hail in some places! as big as tennis balls!) had descended. Needless to say, I stayed inside; silently celebrating the lack of sun, watching Finding Nemo.

Sunday I spent with Nicole, at Pushover; a music festival in Abbotsford Convent in Melbourne each March. I definitely reccomend everyone goes; we got to meet the members of some of my favourite bands - Yves Klein Blue,

                                  Wherewolves 

and Young Heretics. Just for the record; they're all very lovely and very attractive.

 It was a  great day made all the better by the weather. You guessed it, more rain.

 I love the rain!

I expect to see you all there next year!

Listening to: The Lost Loves - Young Heretics

omigosh *bounces*

tights! I love tights!
These are all from OMSA and range from $45-$60 AUD. Which is nice.

and these here will set you back almost $30.

One day I'll be rich and I'll have tons of pretty tights and silly things like that.

The only problem is I'm renowned for being clumsy..which means I don't buy pretty stockings because whenever I do..they get destroyed within one or two wears.

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Listening to: Norweigan Recycling Mashups.....on repeat....constantly

this post is dedicated to yve

I'm just going to talk up Melbourne a bit actually. I'm sitting in school, writing blog posts instead of studying and all I really want to do is go shopping. Smith Street is calling me!
I just got paid and I want my disposable income disposed of immediately. Melbourne has such amazing shopping for anyone, no matter what their tastes.

Yeah sorry I actually have nothing to say. How awkward.
I'm loving year 12 at the moment; all my subjects make me happy :)
unfortunately one history teacher is the proverbial thorn in my side. But I'll deal. Not long from now I'll be out of here, travelling the world.

I bought the most amazing jacket in Paris; I'll get some photos up of it soon. Its like curtain material, but gold and green; and with all biker jacket zips all over it. I like it

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seriously, just do it.



Listening to: The sounds of computers and teenage girl chatter

this one's a serious one sorry

A friend of mine has asked me to promote this
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It's regarding bone marrow/stem cell donations for people suffering from leukemia and other blood related diseases. I'm not sure why its so important to her; but I'm afraid I might have figured out why. Its an incredibly worthy cause; you have to be 18 to sign up in Australia here, the website is this in America and either The Anthony Nolan Trust or the British Bone Marrow Registry in Britain.
I'm still unsure if I'm eligible to donate once I turn 18 because I was born in England; and in Australia there are regulations against blood and blood product donations if you lived in the UK for 6 months or more between 1987 and 1995 or something. I think I can donate marrow, but not blood.
And I will.
As soon as I possibly can.

as of late

inspiration has made me reconsider the direction i'm taking here. I feel this more becoming an actual blog than just a list of things i like; which is ok with me.
greta is giving me blog envy.

note to self: stop making all the titles sentences carried on in the first line.
so we didn't win swimming today; but we definitely won most enthusiasm..thanks to the year 12s, 11s, some 10s and literally 2 year 9s.
yay dryads!
maybe if all our bathers looked like this we might have won?

beach blanket bingo bathing suit: $89.99

kaleidoscope swimsuit: $149.99

I'm in love with the second one. Both prices are in USD though, and way out of my price range for swimsuits I'll probably be too afraid to wear into water. They come from here if you have a larger budget than me.

Happy shopping! Also, might I suggest that wherever you are, if you're in school and your school has a "house" system; get involved. Its taken me way too long and now I will only have had 2 years of spending so much time with the amazing girls. It really is the best thing ever. Just go for it.

clothesies

printed singlet style dress with ruffle down the front. available in blue, red or floral. $220 from Joveeba.


I'm so jealous of anyone with money right now. I'm trying so hard to scrape together enough money to buy soup mix for lunch, and someone is going to buy this dress. Waaaaaah :(   

I found it on the estile website. I want to cry; even reduced to $99 by ny friends over there I still can't afford it. One day

im sorry ok!

I know its been way too long but I've been in France and do you really want me to recommend an entire country?

Actually....that isn't a bad idea. So France; located in Europe; variable weather conditions and variable inhabitant attitudes. Do it.